Hi strangers! Blogging is a like any other habit. When it’s part of your routine, it’s easy and natural. When the routine disappeared, so did my rhythm apparently, but I do hope to share my life more regularly once I’m settled in to Boston. I’ve lived out of a suitcase since April 30th, so I can’t tell you how much I’m looking forward to moving in to my sublet next week. While the job piece is still TBD, I’m going to settle in to some kind of a routine there and writing will be part of it. I’m so excited for cooking and running with friends on safe, well-lit, beautiful roads, and I’m honestly relieved to have no upcoming travel for once.
I spent most of last week in Boston shuttling between doctors appointments trying to figure out what was going on with my heart. Back story – I felt crappy most of training the last few months and eventually went to an urgent care center a few days before the Eugene Marathon (my goal race), and the doctor told me I couldn’t run because I had a right bundle block branch (RBBB). I was sidelined from anything that got my heart rate up, and I was getting more and more frustrated since I couldn’t find a cardiologist in Boston available any time soon. Luckily a family friend pulled through and got me an appointment with a fantastic doctor at MGH. Well two doctors, three EKGs, one ultrasound, and one stress test later, I was cleared to run. The urgent care center doctor misdiagnosed the RBBB and my tests showed nothing wrong. I’m trying not to think about the fact I probably could have run Eugene, and I’m focusing on the fact I can finally run again. It’s feeling like an uphill battle getting back the cardio but I’m just happy to be out there.
I’ve been training for the better part of a year to qualify and run the Boston Marathon. While I did qualify at Philly, I didn’t get a time that will guarantee me a bib for Boston so in my mind the goal was never fully accomplished. I didn’t get to race Eugene, so the natural question is whether I’m going to pick another goal race. The answer, as of today, is a big old hell no. I was burnt out early on during Eugene training and stopped having any kind of fun. I flirted with a serious hatred of running, and I need to let myself fall in love again with something that used to give me so much joy.
I’m sure I’ll run another marathon again in due time, but I know that training is a serious commitment that you have to want if you’re going to have any kind of success. I don’t want to train, so I’m not going to train. Sounds simple but you’d be surprised how many people (including myself) never fully ask themselves why they’ve set goals and whether they truly want to put in the work necessary to achieve those goals. I do, however, want to run for fun, focus on getting fast, run some trails, go full speed at November Project, build a regular yoga practice, and whatever else I feel like doing when I wake up every morning. But none of that includes following a training plan and I couldn’t be more confident about that decision.
Now on to the weekend recap portion of this post – I kicked off Memorial Day weekend with a quick flight to Maryland on Friday to meet my dad. I haven’t been home since January and it’s been so wonderful spending time here and our family’s beach house in Bethany Beach, Delaware. We headed to the beach on Saturday morning and filled the lazy days with outlet shopping, cocktails at beach bars, and boating. I saw some family friends I hadn’t seen since Christmas and slept better than I have in months. I have some of my best memories at our beach house, and I’m excited to spend the last few days of this trip back at the beach this coming weekend.
Until then I have November Project DC tomorrow, a few yoga classes at a local studio, breakfasts with old friends and a lot of home cooked meals eaten on our back porch. I’m filling those days with the job search, fun car and health insurance to do’s, and working on the Mission Bars Boston launch. All good things. Have a great night, friends!